– Sudhanshu Joshi
When reality does not coincides your way,
When disappointment becomes a daily scream.
When your actions take a different turn,
Then all you can do is Wish and dream.
So, Here I stand firm and tall,
With a high head and a smile so small.
To express all that I have buried inside,
My wishes, my Dreams and all my pride.
I want to express all my feelings,
That have been there buried since ages.
My broken heart, My honest smile,
My expectations and those unturned pages.
Again a confused mind ,
Lost in this maze of emotions.
Fighting for the happiness of others,
But ending up with a negative notion.
Summarizing my life as a bag of sentiments,
Will do all the justification needed.
Those sleepless nights, those rally of thoughts,
Those hurt emotions and all that I pleaded.
I wish they were me,
Or I wish I was them.
As to Understand their thoughts,
Not all but maybe some.
Being me they would feel all that I felt,
My love, my expectations and all the latent griefs.
Being them I could understand,
Why they failed to know me in all their beliefs.
A pause, a break I beg for it now,
So that I can stand firmly again.
I want to resist myself from expressing,
Because all this will go in vain.
As always I failed to express,
Express all that is kept inside.
My feeling, my expectations and all my thoughts.
My acceptance is where they hide.
So, here I am with my smiling mask,
A lighting to pour with rain of bask.
Standing with my melancholy hidden,
And a smile that seem to be forbidden.